Hey guys i know that i havent blogged in a little while and i am very sorry i have just been a little busy and a little occupied lol Anyways so i am doing pretty good a little sick to my stomach at the moment due to the metformin! Im ok though lets see there are a couple new things to tell for one i have started a TTC Vlog on youtube i have two videos up so far the first is just a introduction and the second is an questions video to get to know me i love doing it now i am totally addicted haha but anyway so another thing is i am still waiting on AF she is around 3 days away now and i have no signs of her as of yet so *FX* About 4 days ago or so i had some slight cramping but it was nothing like AF and i had quite a bit of EWCM and now nothing besides i am still pretty you know down there lol and i have been craving oatmeal pies for two days now just randomly and i finally got them today and let me tell you they were delicious!!!! Well thats about all that i have for now still waiting on AF so i can start clomid even though it would be great if she didnt show and i get my BFP so send me lots of baby dust!!! :) My youtube name is xxxOurTTCJourneyxxx if you want to follow my new TTC Vlogs! Well i guess that is just about all for now i will try to blog again very soon and i love you guys!!! Just remember our days is coming and LOTS of babydust to you all! :)
~Lovers Until The End~
Monday, April 30, 2012
Sunday, April 22, 2012
~April 22, 2012~
Hey guys i know it has been awhile since i have blogged lol but there has really been nothing happening even worth blogging about! So im doing pretty good excited about church tonight! I created a group for TTC ladies on facebook and i love it i just love having people that know what i am feeling and going through to talk to it helps me so much and anytime i have a question they are always there to help the best they can! :) So as you guys might know this month was kinda a little break for the hubby and i not trying yet trying at the same time lol the only thing we didn't do was OPK'S and track ovulation etc.... I thought since we are starting clomid next month that we could use a relaxing month right before! lol But that being said i didn't even know when i ovulated or if i did so the night before last i was having horrible leg aches while trying to go to sleep i actually tossed and turned alot because of it anyway so then last night i was having slight cramps and slight sharp pains in my right ovary area here and there then again while trying to sleep last night i was having the leg aches again so who knows what that is lol so i decided just for fun to do the math and add everything up to see if i had ovulated yet so i did that mabey 20 mins ago and guess what?!? Im actually 3 DPO today so i was like hmmmm..... Well, anyway who knows mabey it is a good sign and i pray that i do get my BFP if AF is a no show i will be ecstatic and if she isn't well then i will be excited also because that means its time to start clomid! So either way i will be happy!!! So it is officially 2 weeks and 2 days until my first clomid cycle and i am sooooo EXCITED!!! I cant wait i am so hopeful about this and i really believe that this is the light at the end the tunnel for us and i will hold on to the faith in god that he will give us our beautiful miracle baby!!! That being said even though i do have hope and faith and believe that it will in fact work there are also the what ifs' constantly running through my head because if this doesn't work we cannot afford the expensive step that is next which is IUI or IVF and we just cannot afford that so this truly is our last choice and our only hope so just please keep us in your prayers that this clomid will work in the 6 cycles that i am on it!!!! I love you guys and remember that our day is coming i promise!!!! <3
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
~Hope&Faith~
Hey guys i know i have not posted in a while and there is a reason of course lol. So as you guys know i was put on metformin on april 12th and i start clomid next month well the metformin has been making me SUPER sick for the first 4-5 days i could hardly even eat and all i felt like doing was laying in the bed!!! But i think the problem was all the soda that i was drinking since it is loaded with sugar and metformin is a insulin pill so...... anyway i stopped the soda all together and all i am drinking now is sweet tea which is working out very good because for the past two days now i have had almost no sickness thank goodness, not that it isn't worth it because it is and i would have continued to take it regardless!!! So that is the reason that i have not posted in a while! Anyway so i am very excited that my first clomid cycle is coming up in about 2 weeks and 6 days and i cant wait to see if i ovulate and see if it works for us i am truly having faith that it will but there are still the what if's that run through my mind! Since you can only be on clomid for 6 months (6 cycles) i just keep thinking what if it does not work? What if we are not pregnant in 6 cycles? It scares me to death because we cannot afford the really expensive step that would be next which is IVF. So just please keep us in your prayers and FX that this clomid is the light at the end of the tunnel and that we get our little miracle baby within the 6 months that i am on it!!! Well, i know it is short but that is really all i have for now i will try to post again soon!!! Love you guys and just remember our day is coming soon i promise!!!! Babydust to you all! :)))
Friday, April 13, 2012
~Excited~
Hey guys i know that i didnt blog yesterday after my BIG news, but it was such a lonnnng day and i was wore out so i am a little late haha anyway as you know if you read my blog we had our appointment yesterday the 12th of April 2012 and it was our last fertility test witch was for me and it was an ultrasound and also we found out all of our results and what we are going to do!!! So here is the news we both have a problem but its small! His test showed that he has low count and low mobility, I have PCOS which can cause you not to ovulate, but here comes some good news!!! It doesn't mean that we cant have a baby because we still CAN :))) Oh and my insulin wasn't where it should be and that can interfere with ovulation also but there is a fix for that also!! My OBGYN said that she has alot of hope that clomid will work for us! She gave me clomid and metophormin the metophormin is for the insulin situation! I start clomid next month, and i have already started the metophormin i take it everyday twice a day! :) I take clomid days 5-9 of my cycle and i have blood work every month on cycle day 23 to check for ovulation!!! She said that she had a couple that was in the same situation that we are in and she put the girl on clomid and she came in the office pregnant this month!!!! So i am very hopeful and relieved!!!! That is my news and i just wanted to share and tell you guys how excited and so much more hopeful that i am!
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
~Big Day~
Hey guys my day has been pretty much just a lazy day didnt feel to well when i woke up and that lasted throughout the day but feeling some better. Tomorrow is the BIG day and it is all that i can think about i cant seem to do anything or concentrate on anything lol i just cant get it of my mind im just super duper nervous and scared but at the same time VERY excited!!! I tried studying nope no way nothing was sinking in to my head all i can think about is tomorrow!!!! Anyway just please keep us in your prayers that everything turns out good and i get put on clomid and it WORKS!!!! :) I will definatly let you guys know what happens as soon as i get home! I doubt i will be sleeping much tonight :O Well i did have a very good day tho besides the worrying i had a video chat with the BFF Kim today for the first time that was very fun and cant wait to do it again, she made me laugh so much and weather she knows this or not that really helped me alot with the whole worrying thing! :) I also want to say thank you Kim for the post that you wrote tonight you have no idea how much that meant to me and i am so thankful to have such a great friend love ya much!!!! Well i know its short but thats really all i have for tonight but i am going to attach a picture below kinda a surprise for you Kim hope you like!!! I love you guys and just remember our day is coming i promise!!! :)))
Cloud Chicks :)))
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
~Random~
Hey guys i really didn't plan on blogging tonight but randomly decided to *hint* the name lol anyway today has been a pretty boring day so more then likely this post will probley be but i hope you still enjoy! Today was manly a study ALL day kinda day for me i study alot since i have four years of school to get through lol i was home-schooled and couldnt get my transcripts so i am in the process of doing four years of high-school so i can then move on to college for pharmacy technician :) hubby is doing HVAC and his is only 6 months so he should be finished around october! So one more day until the BIG day on thursday when i have my last test an ultrasound and we also find out the results to all our test including his and we will find out what we are going to do im super duper nervous and i doubt ill be able to sleep at all tomorrow night lol but i am holding on to faith, and keeping my trust in god that all our test will come out good and i pray that i get started on clomid and it works!!! I am so ready to get my BFP as i know all of you are too :) I am starting to hate my news feed on facebook all but the post from my buddies and the group :) it just gets so old logging on and constantly seeing people pregnant and having babies i know that sounds awful and i shouldn't feel like that but i just cant help it :( I mean dont get me wrong i am so happy for anyone who is blessed with the wonderful gift of a child, but i want that too and i have waited soooo long im just so ready!!!! I just want to say to my BFF Kim i am soooooo happy and excited for you guys im so glad you took that step and just keep thinking this is for a baby this is for a baby and you will get through it just fine i had to tell myself that same thing, and trust me it is so worth it and it is such a relief to finally get it done and just think you are on the road to answers and help, and you just wait before you know it we will be cloud chicks ;) lol I also want to say i am so happy for you guys about the house and i am praying for both situations! I cant wait until you move to Tennessee :)) Well thats all i have for tonight Love you guys, and just remember our day is coming i promise!!! :)
Monday, April 9, 2012
~April 9,2012~
Hey guys well today has been a pretty average day woke up pretty early since the hubby had his test this morning, yay so glad that done, now its just a waiting game until thursday, i am super duper nervous seems like forever until thursday lol but please everyone keep us in your prayers that everything will turn out good and that she will put me on clomid and it will work!!! :) I will be sure to let all of you know what happens thursday! :) So tonight i have decided that i am going to tell you what stress, sadness, and depression that i have been going through for the past 7 months and am still going through!!! Here it goes! First off let me say that i have always been and always will be a daddys girl! September of last year our family got a horrible call that totally changed our lives for the worse we got a call telling us that my dad had cancer (Hodgkin's Lymphoma) I will never forget this day, i was in total shock at first but when i finally accepted it i just broke down, the thought the fear all i could think was i cant lose my daddy i just cant i cant tell you how many sleepless night i sat up just balling thinking about that very thought! And i will also never forget the day that his hair started falling out, so he shaved it and shaved his beard (my daddy loved his beard) this killed me and i just broke down once more, then his blood count dropped super low one treatment and they gave him a shot to boost it back up thinking this was a very good thing i was at peace! Until one night i just couldn't sleep i didn't know why and its hard to explain but i just felt something was going to happen, well.... it did i all of a sudden heard my mom yell BRIDGET i was totally terrified at what i saw when i came upstairs my dad down on his knees with chest pain so bad we really thought it was a heart attack we ended up calling 911 and my mom rode in the ambulance as we followed that night i really thought that what i had been terrified of for months was happening, well after lots of test we finally found out that it was a reaction of the shot that they had given him to boost his blood count! Then after a few months of some peace something else came along and all of a sudden my dads arm swelled up and it was killing him, so here went another ER visit this time it was very bad news, after hours of waiting and worrying we found out that my dad had a blood clot on his lung and several in his arm, the doctor said that if he wouldn't have came to the emergency room it would have killed him!!! Here was another moment when i really thought that i was loosing my daddy, he was admitted in the hospital and was there for 5 days, during his stay my papaw was in the same hospital with pneumonia he is really not in good health at all but needless to say the same time my dad was in the hospital we found out that my papaw has small cell lung cancer the worst and most aggressive kind, they told us that there is no cure for this cancer and that the chemo is only to prolong his life as long as they can, so i have to set here and try to accept that i could lose my papaw at any moment! Now my dads cancer went into remission and we thought all was well today he went to find out the results of a check up scan and was told that it was showing abnormal lympnodes again and that it is possible that it is cancer again, he has a pet scan on wensday and we will know the results next monday so just please keep my family in your prayers! Below i will attach two pics the first one is my hubby, my daddy and i we bought some silly hats to support him in his hear loss when he first had to shave his head it meant so much to him! The second one is just a fav pic of mine of my daddy and i!!!! Well i guess that is all for tonight i love you guys and just remember our day is coming i promise!!!!! :)
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